Just to keep me going, here are a list of things I am looking forward to between now and the end of the year. Will be added to as I go.

APRIL:
- Beach bonfire with people from work!
- AX staff meeting (reasons: shallow)
- PRETTY PRETTY PAY CHECK

MAY:
- INSURGENT COMES OUT
- Trip to Vegas with girls from work!
- APOCALYPTOUR for Starkids!
- AX Picnic (reasons: shallow)

June:
- IRELAND!!!!!1!! (/foams at the mouth)
- Using createspace code to get proof copies of Wayfarer
- AX!

July:
- AX cont.!
- My birthday
- LAST ARTEMIS FOWL BOOK my sobs

August:
- Camp NaNo! In which I finish the story from my previous camp nano

September:
- Dapper Day!
- Photoshoots with Autumn!

November:
- NaNo! Oh geeze I have forgotten what I was going to write for this but I thought I had settled on a story...

December:
- Japan and Korea hopefully!

Misc:
- Possibly moving depending on bank account!

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So I decided to make a post that holds all my sewing info with upcoming projects, current projects, and the like. It'll be a sticky post so that I can come back to it often :) and because my previous sticky post, of RP muses, is sort of moot because I no longer RP

Personal Sewing Projects:
Random outfit! (want to finish by AX)
- Grey skirt (about 50% completed)
- Burgundy vest (about 20% completed)
- Striped shirt
- Burgundy hat
Dapper Day Dress (finish by September)
- Dress

Cosplay Projects:
Fem!Aziraphale (finish by late July)
- Tartan pencil skirt
- Wings (make or buy)
- Wire-frame glasses

Possible Projects:
- 1925!Miku
- Code:Variant!Gumi
- FFX!Rikku

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I'm rather distracted because I'm watching Thor and Hiddles is always distracting.

I have hit 23500 words on -0- last night. Holy shit it's turning into a monster. I think that, aside from Wayfarer, it's the longest thing I've written in a good long while. I thought Tag was long at just over 15000, but holy damn. And Adachi only just got in. So I've got about a third left to go. Oh god.

But after I hit that, I decided that I was going to take a break. Month-long for the purpose of working on FBB. Only I felt completely overwhelmed. And so, I have once again decided that it would be best to drop out of fantasybigbang. I'm going to use this break to do other things, like read and sew and edit and relax.

But this means I don't have to freak out about my sewing projects. I'll probably work on them tomorrow after the gym.

Other than that, not much to say. I've been writing like mad.

Went to fashion district on Saturday and got some fabric for Rikku's outfit and now I need to think about how I'm going to actually put it together. Now I need to get trim for the shorts and ribbon for the back. Chris is putting together the leather things for me since he has a nice sewing machine for it.

Well. Yeah. Nothing much to say. Life has been pretty boring. Not complaining really! But now I'm not going to power-cram writing and sewing in a few short weeks.

GOING TO IRELAND IN LESS THAN A MONTH AAAAAA--

PS I got paid for tutoring! Hoorah!

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Bullets, because nothing really concrete:

+ I'm getting stressed over really innocuous things. Like all the driving I have to be doing the next two weeks (two trips to fashion district if I can't get Erika to drive for one of them, and then up to the picnic for AX because it looks like Ryan didn't get the time off so that means I can't pester him into driving instead). Like the thought that maybe I should drop out of FBB after all, because I can't get myself to write Zero. Like I won't be able to do all the sewing that i want to do between writing and working, and Ireland, and doing other shit.

+ Need to send laptop back sometime this week.

+ Sold Alice 19th! Need to ship it out as well.

+ Will likely send both things on Friday, since I don't have work then.

+ Got Kat to agree to go with me to Starkids on the 20th! Yay!

+ Changing "trip to vegas with girls from work" to "heading up to santa monica pier/shopping, then 6 flax" or something like that. It's... a bit more money than I was planning on spending. One more thing to stress out over because I've been spending too much money lately on eating out and buying snacks.

+ And I still need to set some money aside for things like finally getting car insurance, I think now I have to pay for my AAA roadside membership, getting Euros, fabric for FFX!Rikku and possibly Otter Penguin uniform.

+ I should go write Zero but I am really just very tired of it, even though I know I need to finish it as soon as possible so that the persono can start recording the podfic. I don't know.

Now I've gotten myself worked up. I need chocolate. Too bad i don't have any.

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I'm super exhausted and a bit hungry but it is late. I haven't eaten a proper meal all day, just sort of snacked. But that's okay. Here's a quick update instead!

- Walpurgisnact, Beltane, and the day after were all very nice. I didn't burn the papers like I planned, nor did I go to the beach, but I had a very lovely stay at home day and enjoyed my first few days without worrying about tutoring.

- Devoured Insurgent. No joke. Too many feelings and no where to vent them. Dianne will be reading it soon, though.

- CLEANED MY ROOM OH MY GOD. I had laundry out from back when I saw Hunger Games it has been THAT LONG. Desk is still a hopeless mess though, there is no fixing that.

- Need to crank out the second half for Zero. I got two claims for it!! AND SOMEONE WANTS TO DO A PODFIC FOR IT (/foams at the mouth excitedly). Someone also wants to do art even though they don't know the P4 fandom. I AM SO HONORED.

- Tiffany came over yesterday and we had drinks and pretended to write and watched Princess and the Frog. It was good. Then she convinced me to see the Avengers with her.

- I had many Tom Hiddleston feels. They mostly involved me going "He would make a perfect Johannes Cabal oh god why--". I had many other feels over how incredibly good looking the cast is (mmmmm tight pants galore) and how wonderful Joss Whedon is. Also very nearly burst out laughing when the movie just started and Loki was on screen and Tiffany's dad leans over and says "I just paid for your lunch! Don't you feel stupid now!!"

- Got my tickets for my flight to Ireland! Oh god you guys it's coming so quickly I don't know what to do I am so nervous and excited. I depart from San Diego on June 1st at 9:25, then arrive in Dublin at 8AM on June 2nd (got a 3 hour layover in Chicago). Then have trip times. Then we arrive back in Dublin on June 9th. I stay in a hotel overnight and depart from Dublin on June 10th at 10 AM, arriving back in San Diego at 7PM on June 10th (after a 7-hour layover ohgod). But this means I get a whole day to play in Dublin! AHHHH I AM SO EXCITED!

Okay anyway going to bed because I am so super exhausted and my stomach is going "bleh" from lack of food and I don't want to make tea and yeah. Tired but happy.

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Yesterday consisted of braiding for Beltane and setting my my altar and then reading Insurgent for 10+ hours.

Today consisted of some cleansing for Beltane and then lying around on my floor pretending to clean and reading Wayfarer (without editing) and eating gummi bears.

No regrets.

Except with all the gummi bears...

Freaking exhausted from staying up so late last night. Got work in the morning. Love having an entire day to myself and having to go "oh, I need to run off to tutoring!"

Also found out I'm actually getting paid for March! $50 for the 3 or so hours I did. Good. This means there is hope for actually getting paid for April! Though it remains to be seen if they'll charge me for unfinished hours...

Yeah okay going to bed zzzalskdafj

Oh, and managed to convince myself to remain in FBB so let's get that shit done!

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Okay so. I've been meaning to make a post (AN ACTUAL POST) for days now. Today's post will be in a rambly paragraph format, so read at your own peril. It will mostly consist of the remains of my anger, as well as talking about plans for next week.

So, first, to get it all out of the way: MY ANGER. At this tutoring company. Wednesday saw a 10-minute rant session to my dad, and yesterday had a 20-minute rant session to my parents. It also involved me nearly screaming my head off in public and crying in my car. On one hand, I am SO TOTALLY GLAD that April is over. Like, I could seriously cry in relief with it being over. But the company decided to inform me yesterday that they didn't accept the SLP I made for Andrea (submitted on the 11th), though they never told me why (or what I should do with the paperwork), just that any hours I completed with her will not be counted (I had around 8). They also decided to inform me yesterday that I never turned in an SLP for one of my students (I turned it in on the 20th, though admittedly it wasn't the signed version, though they just said I never turned one in period), and so I will not be able to tutor her (I've completed around 5 hours with her).

Keep in mind they sent me these emails at 3:30 on a Friday. And my last day of tutoring is Monday.

I sent replies to both emails (the first one saying "Why was it not accepted and why was I not informed of this sooner?" and the second one saying "I turned it in, and I would offer to forward it to you but I guess it would be too late seeing as my last day of tutoring is on Monday"). Of course, I won't get any responses until after Monday. If I do, I will likely promptly delete them without reading them. Because really.

Any rate, I still never found out about if I will owe them the $27 per uncompleted hour. They called me after I finished Lupe and said I would have to, and if I had any questions, I could call their payment and invoicing department. Which would be useless because if I called them yesterday then they wouldn't return my call until, what, next Thursday? Probably a month from now, knowing them.

After talking to mom about it, she announces that it is likely a scam and that they never really planned on giving the kids laptops for "completing 15.25 hours of tutoring"; that when David's previous tutor neglected to file the paperwork correctly, it wasn't the previous tutor's fault it was the company making it look that way. And that if they hire any more tutors on for the remainder of the year, that it will now proceed to look like I have been at fault for missing hours and incomplete paperwork etc.

I had to tell Andrea and Emily (and David's mom) that the company is being a jerk and screwing with all of us. I have pretty much completed all my tutoring. My official tutoring. I promised Andrea that I would let her take the post-test so she can see how much she has improved. I'm going to print it out like a worksheet and have her take it that way, and then we'll just review it together or something.

BUT! MOVING ON A BIT!

Tomorrow after work I am making copies of all the paperwork that I have completed--so that I'll have digital copies and then the "official" ones all shoved into the envelope to be mailed off on Monday morning. I am going to take all the copies (or maybe the originals and mail in copies, just to make it more satisfying) on Tuesday and use them in my Beltane ritual: BURNING THEM.

At this point, I have become so exhausted and have had no time really to relax and not stress about anything. Not to say that will all be over at the end of the month, because I am really panicking about these big bangs and I'm honestly considering dropping as an author for FBB, but after this tutoring I will officially have "me" time.

Monday is my chance to unwind. Monday is Walpurgisnacht, or May's eve. After tutoring, I'm going to B&N with Dan and Erika after not having seen them for a month or so, then I'm coming home to have a drink and do some readings with Aurora and Agrippa.

Tuesday is my chance to cleanse. It is Beltane, May 1st. I have the day off, so I am going to clean my bathroom (or at least my bathtub) I don't know when Insurgent will arrive, but I am hoping early in the day! I am going to be dressing in reds and golds/yellows, the color of Amity (from Divergent series) and even close to the colors for Beltane (yellow, green, and pink). I'm going to the beach to read and cleanse my crystals and decks. Then I'm going to bring some sea water home with me, and set up candles around my bathtub and mix the sea water in the bathtub with a little bit of tap water, then proceed to burn all the paper work. Beltane is a celebration of fire, and it is believed that jumping over a bonfire or even a candlestick will help cleanse you. While I can't exactly jump over flames easily in my setting, burning the source of my stress from the past month will be a wonderful release (and it will be into a bathtub filled with my element, water).

So yes, looking forward to that.

I've finished plotting Zero for the most part, and all I need to do is power-through and finish writing it. I found a beta, which is wonderful, and she loves it so far. I'll type up my outline and then send it in with the rough draft on Sunday or Monday. But I honestly don't have the time or the energy to work on FBB. Which, while sad because I do love that story, I would not be able to make it. Not if I also want to do a decent job of editing wayfarer on top of writing Zero. Of course, I'll still be doing art/mixes for it, so. We always need more artists compared to writers. Maybe I'll save it for next round or something.

For those of you who haven't heard, Legend of Korra has been stealing my soul. I need icons. I want to screencap it and then make a pretty picspam but then I see all these pretty graphics on tumblr and I just go "bwuh how does u photoshoop?" (/just like that). But it has been stealing my soul. And I am seriously in love with it and it's potential and I will cry if it only ends up being only the 14 episodes they have planned (they can't call something Book 1 and then not have anything else!!!!!) because there is SO MUCH they can do with the world and 10 more episodes won't cut it FANFICTION!. Chris, Taka and I have created an OC pro-bending team. We are called the Otter Penguins. We're going to dress up and do a photoshoot in the summer. It will be awesome.

Speaking of cosplay, on top of suddenly deciding to do the Otter Penguins (I bought a black wig for my character! I can't wait to get it and style it!), I've decided to add FFX!Rikku to my cosplay list! Oh my god! I've been wanting to do her forever. Now I will! My friend Jessa is actually doing an FFX group (Yuna, Tidus, Wakka, and Lulu) and so I am very excited because I will have people! And they're all amazing cosplayers so I have my work cut out for me. I also asked if she could bring her Roxas so we can take pictures as Roxas and Namine and she said okay *A* (and her Tidus is also her Sora and so that might happen as well and EEEE). Sorry I'm just filled with excited feels because Kat was my cosplay buddy and she's gone ;a; (/makes grabby hands). We're having a trip to the Fashion District in May. It will be grand.

Okay whelp I should go I've got work for six hours tomorrow. But then I am getting stuff to prepare for Beltane and then copying paperwork and doing laundry. And maybe editing.

The only thing I will be sad about no longer tutoring is not having that netbook.

PS: Artemis you damn phone what are you doing what is wrong with you ugh I think I will turn you off and use something else for an alarm just in case.

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(but if you follow me on facebook and I think on twitter you would have seen already):

I BOUGHT TICKETS TO GO SEE STARKIDS!!!! And I watched their new musical, Holy Musical, B@man! They're in San Diego May 20th, the day before I leave for Vegas with the girls from work so I'm so super stoked I actually get to catch them!

Sadly, Florence + The Machine does not have any SoCal stops past SB and Coachella sobs I want to see her in concert

Time to go put on some P4 music and write Zero!

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I can't believe it either. Just two weeks of April left! So much left yet to do.

A lot of the parents of my students have been asking me if the kids will be getting the laptops at the end of the tutoring, or if I can come back more than twice a week, or if I can stay more than an hour a day. And I feel really guilty saying "no I can't" or "I don't know". Because it's really unfair to both the students and to me that the company put us in such a position. No I cannot get even close to 15 hours for seven students, especially when I only started tutoring two last week. Starting next week, I have to schedule post-tests for everyone. I don't honestly expect some of their scores to rise all that much because I have had so little time with them. But just two more weeks. Two more weeks. Technically less since the last week won't be all tutoring.

It rained last Friday so the bonfire was going to be rescheduled. Ryan wants to go bowling on a Monday or Tuesday but a lot of people decided to just go ahead and do the bonfire this Friday. Ryan won't be able to go since he's got plans already, and I don't think I'll be staying that long because I'll have tutoring until, what, 7:30 I think? And then I have to be up early on Saturday for AX meeting. But it will be nice to go to the beach. The weather has been lovely lately.

So, yes, meeting for AX on Saturday. Gotta be there as close to 9 as possible, which means getting up at 7 (which is fine I've been doing that without an alarm anyway) and leaving at 8 (that's the tricky part). Will be there most of the day so I haven't been able to schedule tutoring for Saturday. There's a form from way back when that I never filled out so I should actually do that and bring it to Jonathan... whoops haha

For those of you that haven't heard, I printed out Wayfarer and stuck it in a giant binder! I want to start editing it, but I really should be writing. And I Haven't been writing. Mostly because when I have the time, I just want to relax because I never really have the time. But guh. I have two weeks left to get as much done of Zero as I possibly can (and reread Divergent if possible) and then comes May, when I must cram in my FBB and somewhere in between read Insurgent and start editing.

My plans for today after this post:
- Clean room while rocking out to Mumford and Sons
- Print out worksheets for students for today (and tomorrow)
- Go to tutoring
- Work in writing if possible

Friday I'll do laundry. And get more writing and possibly editing done.

Had to get my car repaired. It cost somewhere around $1000 though I'm only going to be paying for half of it. Haven't had the chance to talk to parents about what I'll be paying since they picked it up yesterday while I was at tutoring. Of course, I also keep asking my dad to send me an updated total of what I owe him for my cellphone and he never does. Hm.

I think I remembered what I wanted to write for my NaNo novel! And it involves Fe, Finn, and Othello and my attempt at writing horror! Well, horror in the Ghost Hunt sense. Fe is a modern-day witch. I haven't decided which kind yet, but I have been following blogs of a lot of witches and have been utterly fascinated by some of the things they do. I don't think I'll make her someone who dabbles in dark magic but I want to make a character she knows that does. I think Finn will still be a religious person, though he keeps quiet about it. And Othello is just sort of there. I really need to think of a reason why he gets roped in with them. But they're going to fight ghosts and spirits and it's going to be awesome!

Speaking of witch-y things, I really want to set up a mini altar. I know where I want to put it, but then I'll have to find another spot for all my Lego mini figures LOL (well, as well as everything else on that shelf because not everything I want to keep in my altar). I am thinking of changing my bamboo to my old fish bowl because it's been in that vase for far too long (almost seven years) and it's probably not good for it's roots. It is starting to die, so I want to see if there is any way to get it flourishing again. Also, Beltane is coming up on the 1st. Since it is a Tuesday, it calls for a trip to the beach!

Mom and I have already started talking about packing for my trip to Ireland. I am so so so excited though I have to keep reminding my dad to buy tickets because if not then they will just get more and more expensive. YOU GUYS. IT'S JUST A MONTH AND A HALF! AHHHHHH!

Okay I've got an hour and a half to clean my room and get dressed. Let's go.

Here's a six-word story. Back to my FBB because I haven't written for that in ages:

They're carved carefully, lovingly, from bone.

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Here is my attempt to figure out things

+ While I cannot say when the start of the tutoring actually began, the company and VUSD have had an agreement to get X number of students tutored for 15.25 hours by the end of April. At least, that would be the logical thing.
+ Due to the failings of previous tutors and VUSD's inability to keep track of things, more tutors are required to be hired very late into the game.
+ Very late means March 15th.
+ I get my students on March 20th, I call them March 23rd.
+ I am told when I am hired that there is NORMALLY a penalty fee of $27/hr/student that you do not complete. I am told when I am hired that this fee is going to be waived because I am being hired so late.
+ I am given 6 students.
+ I have difficulties with the company and the website and am unable to start pretesting my students until the very very very end of March/beginning of April.
+ I get my first round of paperwork turned in, contact the families I couldn't contact before, and everything is hunky-dory.
+ I even pick up a seventh student! (the sister of one of my six)
+ I receive an email saying

"P.S. Please note that the more tutoring hours our students complete the greater academic success they have. Therefore, it is important to complete as all of the tutoring hours allotted. Per your contract with us, it is your responsibility to complete the maximum number of hours. You can be held fully liable for the penalty of $27 per hour for each unfinished hour with each of your students. For 1-on-1 Learning with Laptops students only: Please note that in order for students to receive and own their own computer, they must complete all hours of tutoring."

+ Keep in mind, this is on Monday.
+ I immediately send an email back saying "I was told that the fee would be waived because I was hired so late. It is not logically possible to finish 15.25 hours for seven students in less than a month."
+ Keep in mind, this is on Monday.
+ Today is now Thursday.
+ I have not heard back from them.

And now I am having car troubles, have three sessions for tutoring tomorrow to juggle around with my car and my mom and her work and thank god I don't have work and it's supposed to rain tomorrow and we're supposed to have our bonfire and can it just be may yet?

Real post later. Maybe.

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